Completing Year 46 or Entering... Whatever

As I prepare to walk into my birthday on July 4, 2025, I'm sitting here reflecting — not just thinking about what I’ve been through, but really feeling it. The experiences, the growth, the wounds, the healing — all of it shaped why I am the way I am.

And honestly? I’m still confused. 🤣

Look at that — I almost had y’all thinking I was about to get real deep! But here’s the truth: life has so many layers, and if you don’t pause to breathe, you’ll miss them. If you don’t slow down to reflect, you’ll pass by something important. If you don’t take a moment to just be, you may end up regretting what you skipped. So yeah, I guess that was a little deep.

I don’t know what to expect from turning 46, or if this is me entering year 47 (I saw something online that made the math real questionable 😅). But whatever number this is, one thing is for sure: I’ve had an amazing year 45.

This past year, I’ve grown. I’ve let go of painful places and people. I’ve embraced new parts of myself — new character traits, new ways of thinking, and new levels of emotional honesty. I’ve watched my daughter grow, I’ve watched our relationship transform. We've healed in areas I never thought we could. We’ve even confronted those messy, conflicted thoughts we once thought were “safe” but were really just covered in fear.

I’m excited for what’s next.

I’m excited for how my mind, my will, and my emotions continue to evolve. I don’t have big plans. I don’t have a list of goals. What I do have is a desire to walk into this next chapter as the woman God already spoke into existence in heaven.

I love writing my blogs. I love writing, period. And my prayer is that I continue to walk in every purpose He has for me. I want to put the spirit of fear to death — once and for all.

If I told you where I am in life right now, I couldn’t even explain it. It’s not about having money or opportunities or status. It’s that I’m exactly where God wants me to be. And as long as I stay surrendered — as long as I stay at His feet and in His presence — I’ll keep becoming who I’m meant to be.

Fear whispers that you’re not doing enough. That you’re behind. That you’re failing.

But God!

God is patient. God is kind. God is good. God is so good!

So I’m excited. I’m ready for this next stretch of the race. I’m walking into what’s already been designed, and I know it’s already unfolding.

Man…

It’s really good to be alive.

Happy Birthday, Sonia.

Welcome to Chapter Forty-Six.